week 13 | monday evening

[jackhole]

[ sup, minyans. sometime during the day, your tablets will beep with a new message and it'll show -- ]

You have been added to chatroom "FUCKING POS ALIENS FUUUUCK" by user RHY5-W1NZ.

RHY5-W1NZ: hey
RHY5-W1NZ: we should probably talk
RHY5-W1NZ: probably about the whole being possessed and murdering our friends thing
RHY5-W1NZ: "friends"
RHY5-W1NZ: but also whatever else i guess
RHY5-W1NZ: are you guys doing okay?

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[baptizer]

[ ...... ]


ChoseTheBird: I'm sorry.

[ Legitimately... between her guilt, her pity, and now sadness - that's all she can muster for the three. ]

[parodeity]

turntechGodhead: eh
turntechGodhead: adrien they werent right
turntechGodhead: about you
turntechGodhead: unless youre willing to agree they were also right about me
turntechGodhead: and liz and rhys
turntechGodhead: ok shit i dont know why im saying any of this in text youre right fucking here
turntechGodhead: this is so stupid

[monsieurchatastrophe]

AgrestedDevelopment: it's hard to parse through, but
AgrestedDevelopment: i think that wasn't them but him? his choice
AgrestedDevelopment: anyway

[dave is getting kicked lightly irl before this]

AgrestedDevelopment: that's not the same
AgrestedDevelopment: they guessed a lot of his mindset right
AgrestedDevelopment: & idk you told me to log in

[jackhole]

[ this is a man who realizes he should turn off his capslock.

rhys' own reply will be delayed -- less rapid fire anger and more like he's trying to figure out how to word this. ]

RHY5-W1NZ: when
RHY5-W1NZ: i was in the vents
RHY5-W1NZ: it
RHY5-W1NZ: when it was in the vents, it stopped bothering to alter my memories
RHY5-W1NZ: i was in too much pain to think straight and i thought i was dead?
RHY5-W1NZ: i should have been dead
RHY5-W1NZ: but it was more like i was dying instead
RHY5-W1NZ: shit i just want to say that i get it
RHY5-W1NZ: kind of
RHY5-W1NZ: i get feeling like YOU did it
RHY5-W1NZ: but you didn't
RHY5-W1NZ: none of us did anything wrong
RHY5-W1NZ: and even though no one else is fucking bothering to tell us this
RHY5-W1NZ: i'll say it
RHY5-W1NZ: we did nothing wrong and we didn't deserve this

[baptizer]

[ Elizabeth doesn't want to take any attention off Adrien or for the same matter, Dave. She can try and comfort Rhys when he's upset since they're both deda, but...

She puts her own personal feelings aside. ]


ChoseTheBird: They had no right to bring a theory up in the way they did. I'm owning a biased viewpoint, I can't deny that fact, so forgive me...
ChoseTheBird: But. I... I don't remember anything. I remember the fear in people's eyes and how much Clover hated seeing me alive - but Adrien, Rhys.... I'm so sorry...
ChoseTheBird: ...there's nothing we can undo. We can't feel better instantly or even pretend those moments weren't an utter violation of our entire being.
ChoseTheBird: Please, live. Adrien and Dave - please live no matter what anyone else has said, good intention or not. I don't want to start an argument about what should have happened in the trial, it'll get us no where but angry over events we have to live (or not live) with.

[parodeity]

turntechGodhead: i already told adrien all i remember is my execution
turntechGodhead: and like mom and emilys bodies
turntechGodhead: so yeah
turntechGodhead: rose can decide if shes gonna kill me or not

[monsieurchatastrophe]

AgrestedDevelopment: sorry
AgrestedDevelopment: that's not what I meant
AgrestedDevelopment: but everyone else remembers so if
AgrestedDevelopment: maybe it's weird. but knowing what he did is
AgrestedDevelopment: at least no one had to tell me? or blame me without me knowing why
AgrestedDevelopment: and. it's getting easier to tell which part is me and which was him
AgrestedDevelopment: so if you guys want
AgrestedDevelopment: i could tell you about yours

[there's a pause]

AgrestedDevelopment: nvm it's probably weird

[jackhole]

RHY5-W1NZ: yeah, liz, you're biased
RHY5-W1NZ: i mean jason was kind of a dick but that's sort of his default state
RHY5-W1NZ: like... other people on this ship

[ MARINETTE but he's not gonna go there in this conversation ]

RHY5-W1NZ: look there are a lot of people here who don't know how to be nice to anyone
RHY5-W1NZ: especially us who people should've been the most nice to
RHY5-W1NZ: did any of us pick this?? no
RHY5-W1NZ: anyway who's rose?
RHY5-W1NZ: don't die, dave
RHY5-W1NZ: i've liked you since we got here and i don't like anyone

[ damnit, he's rambling. irl, rhys pinches the bridge of his nose and tries to just. directly address adrien who is obviously pretty torn up about everything. his anger isn't helping here, is it? ]

RHY5-W1NZ: it's not weird
RHY5-W1NZ: tell us what you remember
RHY5-W1NZ: idk if anyone else here will actually care as much as we would
RHY5-W1NZ: since like
RHY5-W1NZ: 1) they suck and 2) it matters to us

[baptizer]

[ and Liz won't go Jason defense mode. Everyone wins. ]

ChoseTheBird: Wait... what do you mean, Adrien? ...Please only clarify if you can. Don't put strain on yourself for our sakes.
ChoseTheBird: You've been through enough...

[parodeity]

turntechGodhead: my "hostage" slash twin sister
turntechGodhead: roxy's daughter

[ so like if she wants to kill him for murdering roxy that's cool he gets it ]

turntechGodhead: i think talking about it might help adrien so
turntechGodhead: im in

[monsieurchatastrophe]

AgrestedDevelopment: roxy isn't mad so why would rose be
AgrestedDevelopment: ... you're right, this is kinda weird to say not irl

[there's a long pause where you can assume adrien has decided to be a shitty cat and lie down on top of dave]

AgrestedDevelopment: i don't think anyone else needs to know this
AgrestedDevelopment: it feels. personal?
AgrestedDevelopment: to us four
AgrestedDevelopment: everyone else said they were just kind of
AgrestedDevelopment: dealing with me out of pity anyway

[if adrien could remove his own comments he would]

AgrestedDevelopment: nvm that
AgrestedDevelopment: but if you don't want to know it's fine
AgrestedDevelopment: It's just.
AgrestedDevelopment: they weren't people in that sense, but they had feelings and personalities
AgrestedDevelopment: and they weren't us at all
AgrestedDevelopment: knowing how different they were and how they thought is
AgrestedDevelopment: it's easier to separate?
AgrestedDevelopment: on top of knowing everything they did and why
AgrestedDevelopment: so it's not a mystery. it's not just some thing that took over us to fuck us over.
AgrestedDevelopment: sorry

[jackhole]

RHY5-W1NZ: ohhhhh
RHY5-W1NZ: dave that's so awkward, bro
RHY5-W1NZ: i hope she doesn't kill you :(
RHY5-W1NZ: it was a mistake and look it wasn't your fault and we're all just
RHY5-W1NZ: fucking
RHY5-W1NZ: data anyway
RHY5-W1NZ: data can be saved? simple stuff
RHY5-W1NZ: give me a fully stocked robotics lab and i'll upload your mom into it np

[ this is how rhys tries to solve problems, apparently. robot mom? robot mom.]

RHY5-W1NZ: adrien, you aren't someone i'd usually hang out with if i had to choose
RHY5-W1NZ: but that doesn't make you a bad person
RHY5-W1NZ: and i've been pretty frustrated with you here
RHY5-W1NZ: WELL no, frustrated with marinette, you're fine
RHY5-W1NZ: but you're also just kids and i never mean what i say anyway
RHY5-W1NZ: god, i'm fucking this up i'm sorry
RHY5-W1NZ: i'm just trying to say that i think you're okay and deserve interaction that isn't out of pity
RHY5-W1NZ: you deserve to like... deal with being fucking possessed by an alien and deal with your feelings after that and not have people approach you out of pity
RHY5-W1NZ: that's basically it, kiddo

[ uh, anyway. god, rhys is so bad at this -- he just!! wants to go back to yelling!! and not feeling like what he says has any impact on people at all. ]

RHY5-W1NZ: anyway, fml. what was i saying?
RHY5-W1NZ: this means they're like...
RHY5-W1NZ: holy shit if we're all data, then it's like we just got reprogrammed or something
RHY5-W1NZ: a virus
RHY5-W1NZ: happens with the AIs back home all the time
RHY5-W1NZ: something sneaks into their system and ofc they act like fucking idiots
RHY5-W1NZ: usually you have to just wipe the data
RHY5-W1NZ: uh
RHY5-W1NZ: that's not helpful wait nvm

[baptizer]

ChoseTheBird: Rhys, it's alright. We're all having difficulty coming to terms with this. We were victims.
ChoseTheBird: But we can't let it define us. Don't let your victimhood define you.
ChoseTheBird: No one knows what it was like, but Adrien, please don't misunderstand my sympathies as pity. That's not my intention.
ChoseTheBird: But.. they had... they were working together like teammates?
ChoseTheBird: ...It doesn't matter. Their personalities and feelings don't matter.
ChoseTheBird: They don't get to have any consideration when they're vile. Disgusting. Dead. They're dead, like they deserve. You can't do something like that without repercussions...

[ She's still really disgusted by her own violation, sorry guys. ]

ChoseTheBird: Dave, if you need to talk about anything... you can too...

[parodeity]

turntechGodhead: no im good
turntechGodhead: i mean
turntechGodhead: ive said a lot of my shit but like
turntechGodhead: i think we should hear more about the aliens
turntechGodhead: that would help its a good idea adrien

[ read he thinks it would help adrien ]

[monsieurchatastrophe]

AgrestedDevelopment: that's not what i meant
AgrestedDevelopment: i'm not saying any of this right
AgrestedDevelopment: the pity thing was in the trial, now they're
AgrestedDevelopment: idk i think they're mad?
AgrestedDevelopment: they aren't talking to me
AgrestedDevelopment: but that's not important

[i mean, it obviously is to him, but]

AgrestedDevelopment: but, rhys
AgrestedDevelopment: she felt guilty
AgrestedDevelopment: idk if she'd tell you this. she's kind of stubborn and proud at the weirdest times
AgrestedDevelopment: and i don't get the data thing?

[there's a bit of a pause and hesitation]

AgrestedDevelopment: but anyway i didn't mean
AgrestedDevelopment: their thoughts mattered.
AgrestedDevelopment: i'm sorry
AgrestedDevelopment: but the only way i've been able to think about what happened without blaming myself is
AgrestedDevelopment: knowing how he was and telling myself i'd never be like that.
AgrestedDevelopment: that i'd never think or act like that?
AgrestedDevelopment: i'd never
AgrestedDevelopment: i couldn't tell myself i would never have tried to kill her or anyone because i have
AgrestedDevelopment: i wasn't myself or in control 100% back then but that was still me
AgrestedDevelopment: but he wasn't me
AgrestedDevelopment: he just happened to ... hitch a ride
AgrestedDevelopment: because of how he thought people would react to me
AgrestedDevelopment: i guess i just want him out of my head


AgrestedDevelopment: but you guys don't need to know any of that
AgrestedDevelopment: i'm sorry

[jackhole]

RHY5-W1NZ: oh the data thing
RHY5-W1NZ: it's like, we're not really real? or something
RHY5-W1NZ: more akin to a computer program
RHY5-W1NZ: but fake because computers don't work that way
RHY5-W1NZ: not the topic though, ignore me
RHY5-W1NZ: adrien, bro
RHY5-W1NZ: that's really good to know?
RHY5-W1NZ: keep telling yourself that. it's not you, it was never you, because the last thing you want to do is blame yourself
RHY5-W1NZ: aliens are just douchebags
RHY5-W1NZ: and you shouldn't really take their opinion under advisement
RHY5-W1NZ: because they suck
RHY5-W1NZ: so does everyone else
RHY5-W1NZ: idk i'm just repeating myself at this point
RHY5-W1NZ: we're here to listen though, kid
RHY5-W1NZ: because holy shit, if anyone gets it
RHY5-W1NZ: it's us